Finding peace in old videos.

you heard me right,
first soundgarden`s Black hole sun, and now Smashing Pumpkin`s bullet with butterfly wings,
the heydays of angry American men.

tried to take a picture i could post here tonight but as you might have seen my photos are crappy and it`s for a reason, i`m not a photographer,

...now anouk is on with her Nobodys wife, was she dutch?


no i`m not a photographer and i never will be, and i hate when people say that "everybody can learn to draw", i can`t draw and i never will be able to,

now cardigans are on with my favorite game, and i just realized what is that i like about nina; her cheekbones.

wanted to post a picture that said something about how cold it was even stopping to take it, but failed.

now muse are on, super massive black hole...sun?

some sacrifices

i caved and got hold of a tv, i traded it for 3liters of wine, the wine was payed with the 30silver coins i got from selling a Burzum record on ebay so in many ways i replaced the devil with Satan.
i caved because of the ski jumping, and the discovery of the Bundesliga matches on sport1, so now i`m sacrificing my preciouses time to this satanbox everyday only to keep my mind from worrying about other things.

motorspycho played in Oslo and i was of course there but won`t be next year, coz i did not only pay the evening with my money but also with my hearing. I was so loud and crappy sound that i don`t know where so start. They played only bad songs and and that despite the fact that they have a lot of good ones to take from, (ok there were a few good ons, but that did not add up for the sound and the loose of my hearing. i left my first Motorpsycho concert in 1995, and i left my last in 2007.

i bought a new pen to day and that made me happy. now i`m writing xmas cards with it.

Rastlaus kjærleik

last night my girl woke me and asked me if i was very sad, and i ask why and then she told me that she really didn`t know that i felt like the way i had put in my blog.
i realized that she was talking in her sleep and soon she went back there leaving me with a lot of questions. and before i fell back to sleep i decided to try reconstruct the post from my girls dream.


5.12.07


Sleepless again, no rest no peace , but this is not the kind of "Rastlose Liebe" Goethe writes about and Schubert composes music to, but the hopelessness of a young man considering moving to the forest, feeling the snow, rain and wind playing with his now all to long hair.

and then there is this issue with Miss A, who all of a sudden don`t have any money and therefore can`t buy new clothes and have to be miserable in her old ones.


Ohne Rast und Ruh!







Miss A here seen in a snow storm last November.